Wednesday, January 04, 2006

who's afraid of the big bad wolf?

is it just me, or do things (imagined, hoped for, etc) seem more real once you've told someone else? take having a crush on someone... the giggly, giddy, generally stupid feeling you get around that person doesn't really exist until that moment you tell someone else that you like the guy. or when you make a promise to yourself--aren't promises to oneself easier to break than promises to other people? (and this is just wrong, but that's another story.)

so. for my first post of the year, i've decided to share my new year's resolutions (otherwise known as promises-to-oneself), so that i really really really stick to them. i guess, i'm promising you, whoever you are, and asking you to help me keep these promises. and thus, i'm making you a little bit responsible for my actions this year! (insert evil laughter here.)

okay, here they are:

  1. be honest and up front about everything at all times to everyone, but especially to myself.
  2. invest only in those relationships that are meaningful to me.
  3. do my best at everything (job/project/commitment) i take on.

i suppose, these resolutions don't really make sense unless you know me well, or i explain myself, but that's not really my style. besides, ask yourself, do you really care?

and really those three statements above can be summarized into one main goal-for-the-year, which is to minimize bullshit and drama in my life. you see, 2005 was a pretty good year for me in the sense that i learned a lot about myself. but with all those life-lessons and god-questions and hallmark-moments (all documented in my past-life-blog), i also got sucked into a big-ass quicksand of complications. so, this year, i'm simplifying.

so, who's afraid of the big bad wolf?

2 comments:

Lily T said...

Nicely written. You are totally right about promises becoming more real when you tell someone. And your promises are good. But what does the big bad wolf have to do with anything?

dreyers said...

Thanks. I guess this is the part where I have to explain myself... Haha. I was gonna play with the idea of having the lamb try on wolf's clothing, instead of the other way around, but I got lazy. (Damn, resolution # 3!) One of these days I'm going to tackle that, and I'll get back to you. :)